Emerald's 7th letter + 1 Month old

(Photos are at the bottom of page)

Sweet Emerald. You are one month old. Well, technically one month and two days. Thank you for being patient with me. Unlike you, I'm not as precise. You seem to be specific with your timing, born exactly on your due date with a very punctual time of 11:30am

 Technically, you are a month and two days old but, time is a man made concept anyway, so here is your 1 month stats, letter, and photos. 

We used sunflowers from the garden for these photos. They have been dried using silica gel. I need to practice this method a bit more. Hopefully it will be a hobby we can eventually do together. 

Your father loves sunflowers. He purchased a wallet and gave it to me when we first met in person. Yes, your father and I met online like a lot of people do now. All technology isn't bad. Anyway, when we met in person he gave me a wallet. He said the colors reminded him of sunshine and sunflowers. Little did he know my wallet had fallen apart and I was shoving things irresponsibly into my pockets or some random bag when I went into a store. Also, little did he know, the color yellow and sunflowers both were my least favorite. Ironically, I refuse to buy something unless I fall in love with it. I spent weeks looking at wallets- your dad didn't know this. None of the ones I looked at, gave me that, "I love this!" kind of feeling. I still don't think your dad knows about this. When he handed me the wallet he told me it was probably a strange gift. I said I love it, I did and I still do. I had given him a little stone carved wolf because he reminded me of a wolf even before I knew him in person. He has the carved wolf in his jeep, it lives on the plastic housing the speedometer. I'll explain more of the wolf/father similarities in a different letter. I still use the wallet and I'll be sad when it eventually falls apart. 

The point of that was to say, your father loves the sunshine and he loves sunflowers. Yellow has always been my least favorite color. I love the moon the most and my favorite flowers are herbs and not floral most of the time. 

You arrived in August. 

You are considered a leo by Western astrology which is ruled by the sun. You took your first breath in August and by Western standards that means your birth flower is the sunflower. It seems like you have a lot of your father's aspects. You both are also number one's when it comes to numerology. 

I wrote all of that to explain the significance of the sunflower and why I picked that to be the accent to your photos. 

You love being outside. I don't know what we are going to do when winter settles in here in ohio. Last year was my first winter here. It was brutal. The wind howls and whips through with zero remorse. 3 months felt like a year. The only thing that kept me feeling okay last winter was knowing you were growing inside of me. I did fall, I wanted to to go feed the puppies so your grandma didn't have to. Ice covered the sidewalk and I fell like the stock market after a new president. It hurt. I sat there for about 5 minutes, so cold, in pain, and worried about you. I got up and went in, cleaned the blood and called your dad so he would know what happened just in case I needed to be checked. I had small contractions that whole day afterwards. I didn't tell anyone. I figured it would be okay; luckily it was. The scar is still there from the busted knee, you are here though, you are perfect, you are beautiful, you are Emerald Reign and I declare this winter will be better. 

One month. 

It is hard to explain. It feels like you've always been with us. I get way more sleep with you. You cry on average 15 seconds a day, if that. Not even that. You love bath time. I take baths with you or a shower with you. Once, you took a bath in the bathroom sink. You sleep in bed with mommy and daddy, you nurse when you want to, you love the ceiling fan. You sit with grandma and talk about things while I complete a few chores. You give dad the illusion you are giving him kisses. Your dad holds your tiny hand when you nurse at night. Your dad sings you a song he made up, "Emerald Reign is her name..." he usually adds something silly which makes me laugh and reminds me of my own dad. My dad is a Sagittarius like yours. They both have a lot of the same qualities. Emerald, you have been blessed with a fantastic father, just like I was. 

I cuddle you every night as we sleep. When you wake around 1 or 2 am I change your diaper, I love that time together and most nights I'll rock you in the chair in your room simply because I want to look at you. You go back to sleep quickly. 

You almost can roll over. It won't be long. You love to sit up but we have to support your head. You are so strong though. 

I could go on and on about you. I want to remember it all. I especially want to remember how you are incredibly content and peaceful in my arms. I know you trust us. I never want to break your trust. You are incredibly loved. 

You are 21 inches 

10.8 pounds 

At birth

at inches 

6.14 pounds 

You make eye contact sometimes, you seem to almost laugh, you love being outside, you look around to see where a voice is coming from. You mostly still nurse and sleep. You do love to stretch really big, yawn big, and get the hiccups. You are absolutely so perfect. You love holding hands and "talking" you are our best friend.